Mmm...right now it's 11:49pm, pouring outside. I'm sitting in bed writing this blog diary sort of thing. I don't know why, but all of a sudden I feel so sentimental, so lovey, touching, feely or whatever you want to call it. Is it the coffee?
A lot has happened in the past 2 years I guess. But somehow, at the end of the day, I don't think I've changed at all. I'm still the same as I was back then, that same naive little girl who day dreams all day, someone who fantasizes, someone who imagines things in such a perfect light that it's almost unrealistic, thinking of the world as if it were a fairytale.
I had a conversation with a friend about relationships the other day. She was analyzing relationships, talking about the balance of power, playing the games... It was all foreign language to me. Really?
To me, love has always been so simple. If you like someone, you just like them. And if everything works out, then great! I guess what I'm saying is that I've never thought about it in a logical way. Maybe I should, just a little bit. But I would never want to be like that. I would never want to analyze relationships like that, to analyze love. It almost seems...robotic in a way...
For the past two years, I've had a crush, I've loved someone, people have liked me. Nothing has really happened, so in a way, its still the same as before.
I thought I've matured, I thought I've grown. But it was only recently that I realized that right now, I still don't know what I want....
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